Shaylie checked her mirror before leaving the house. She didn't want to look stupid for the interview. Even though it was a stupid place to start, she was greatful for the oppertunity.
She hopped in her car wearily. As she did she had a feeling to stay home. as she drove down the highway she heard a loud semi horn and the it went blank...( Read more... )
she awoke to see her boy friend Ryan softly crying and running his hands though his blonde hair.
She looked around a saw where she was she was in the hospital.
She had been in a car crash with a semi truck.
Ryan was talking to the doctor. "Do you think that she will be at full recovery? Soon?"
The doctor shook his head. "I'm not sure, son...give her a while."
Shaylie tried to talk. She could not though. She fumbled and felt around her mouth. it stung and her whole face was full of stitches and bruises. She looked down and she had a bandage all over her stomach. The doctor finished talking to Ryan. Ryan returned to the bed and sat in a chair next to the bed. His face was drained of color and feeling. The doctor turned out the light and Ryan laid his head on her chest and started to silently cry. Shaylie could not move or make a sound. She just let him fall asleep, after 15 minutes he was asleep and slowly she moved her hand up to his head and ran her fingers through his hair.
Later that week:
The doctor went to Shaylie and put his hand to her forehead. She was confused by this act but went along knowing he was the doctor and he knew what he was doing. The soft hand went to her arm and pressed it gently. "Does this hurt?" She shook her head slightly despite the pain. He nodded and went to get his clipboard.
Shaylie looked around the room, while questions boggled through her head.
'Why me?' 'What did I do wrong?' 'Who was the other person?' 'Is he or she ok?' 'What REALLY happened..'
"Ryan....?" she softly called out to him.
"your awake..." tears started to well up in his eyes.
"ya is the other person...ok" she said weakly. she had barley any feeling in her voice.
"......I’m afraid not.....Remember Braidy....he was the other driver....it was....sucide" Ryan said softly.
"Oh no...She cried softly....is he..."She said softly crying.
"No...."Ryan hugged her. they both knew Braidy well they had all be friends since they were little, since preschool to be exact. Braidy had always been abused by his dad.
The tears that fell that day lead to another....the dreaded day of all....the funeral of Braidy. Shalylie had enough of the funeral. She had too many memories that almost cut her open with misery. But she knew that Ryan wanted to talk to Jeffrey...although she had no clue why he was acting this way....well she had a small clue...but she didn't want to think about it. She just thought about the times when everything was OK. When everyone was happy and friends...when everyone loved each other. But that hurt worse...
She sighed painfully and walked with her crutches over to the refreshments.
She looked around trying to find something that looked good.
But nothing did. Nothing in this world had gone right for her....her mother was abusive and Braidy was dead. Dead. She could never forget what she had lost... But the pain was something to get used to. It was time for the veiwing. She looked down at braidys body. She took his hand in hers and silently looked at him. "I......Love you braidy" her voice shatterd and broken. She bent down and kissed his cold forhead. "i love you..." she sighed as the cold yet warm tears fell down her cheek.
she looked at his face on last time and walked away. "im going home ryan...bye jefferey"she said quietly. "let me come with you" ryan said quietly. "NO." she shouted "no...."she said again softly. she turned sharp and limped away on her crutches.
later that night...
She sat in her window as she stared out at the stars and into the moon. she looked down at the t-shirt braidy had given her.it was white with baby-blue sleeves and in baby blue it said 13. it was a huge shirt and went down past her knees. she started to cry again and as she did she sang her and braidys favorite song.....
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone
it was their song.....and she loved him.......not Ryan.... Ryan was a great guy...but Braidy was someone who actually loved her back. No matter where he was. Even now. And she knew with all her heart that he did.
She didn't want to think about it. It was too painful. If she kept thinking it through...more memories would flood her mind.
She didn't want that. But she still knew that pain was her life...for now on...that she would have to put that smile on her face even though it was hard to get up. Even though she cried herself to sleep. Even though memories would be her dreams.
That smile would be one of the hardest things to do. But she had to do it.
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Ok so this was written by me and my friend. Song (c) Savage Garden
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